:: HELP!!!!! ::

Hi all...

I am writin tis down not to show off or to let ppl see how Holy I am or wat... But i need prayer.. I desperately need prayer... so those hu read tis.. pls pray for mi.. thk u so much and God bless...

It has been a whole week dat I have nt felt God's prescence... yet.. I know dat tis was gng to happen... since my revival.. I always wanted God to lead me.. always needed Him for everything.. coz I was hurt by the things and the people of this world.. and I've drawn closer to God becoz He would nvr fail mi.. and He would always lurve mi.. no matter wat...

I am nw like a child hu has lost his parents.. I am so weak and vulnerable.. I juz get the very strong feeling dat God isnt with me... I knw He is there.. but He hides frm me...

Do u recall the 1st time u learned hw to ride a bike? normally ur teacher would push u frm behind rite? den it cums to a pt where the teacher will let go and let u ride on ur own.. most of the time, we fall.. well.. dats wat is happenin to mi nw... I suddenly feel sooo alone..

If Jesus were to come now, I don;t think I would be ready... I reeli missed the times when I was filled wif the Holy Spirit so strongly dat i could prohepsy.... I would feel the strong feeling dat I am luved and I can do all things in Christ..

Yet.. I knw tis is a stage of my christian life dat i muz go thru... Onli after the rain does the rainbow appear... God collects my every tear... and even though i cant feel Him, I know dat He is there... He is watchin over me still...

I am havin mixed emotions.. on 1 hand.. I am very happy dat I am sufferin.. for sufferin is the sign of God;s highest favour upon life.. and to achieve my "Man of Great Faith", i muz go thru tough tests to becum stronger.... on the other hand.. I am feelin so weak.. life is kinda meaningless to me rite nw... and I seriously need prayer...

Fellow brothers and sisters in Christ... pls pray for mi... dat I will go thru tis stage and experience a spiritual breakthru in my life... I am clingin on to God... and I refuse to let go.. till He looks at me again... Help me to break free from sin.. for I hav sinned and fallen short of the glory of God... pray dat I will keep the Lord's commandents without compromise for it is the whole duty of man... help me to keep my faith and nt succumb to the devil.. for victory is wif the 1 hu has Christ...

Help me to pray as I am prayin..


Answer me when I call to You, O my righteous God
Give me relief from my distress, be merciful to me and hear my prayer
In my anger, don't let me sin, let me lie down on my bed and search myself
You have filled my heart with joy, unforgettable joy
I will lie down and sleep in peace.. for You make me dwell in safety and peace

Give ear to me O lord... consider my sighing
Listen to my cry for help.. my King, my God..
For to You i pray
In the morning.. I lay my requests before You and wait in expectation

My soul is in anguish.. Turn and deliver me O Lord...
I am worn out from groaning and my eyes are dried out of tears....
My soul weeps... and pines for You..
Fill me.. for those who thirst after righteousness shall be filled..
Help me O Lord...

How long O Lord? Do not forget me...
How long will You hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my own thoughts and the lies of the enemy?
How long will I have sorrow in my heart?

Look on me and answer O God.. For I am nothing without You
Give light to my eyes or i will sleep in death
Do not be far from me O Lord...

Show me Your ways... Teach me Your paths, guide me in Your truth
Break my heart with the things that break Your heart
Let me see the world through Your eyes
For You are God.. My Saviour.. and i long to be like You

Take away all my sins and cleanse me..
Purify this faithful servant of the Lord...
Sanctify this life that is dedicated to You wholeheartedly
Transform this sinner.. into a godly person..
That he will love and fear You..
And he will master the art of hearing and listening to Your voice

Security was a thing of the past...
Loneliness and pain is my present..
Great Faith and God's glory shall be the future...

When the oceans rise and thunders roar.
I will soar with You above the storm..
Father You are King over the flood..
I will be still and know You are God..

All these I pray in Jesus's most precious name. God. Do not pass me by. Amen.